story of the year

31dec09...
last day of 2k9..so many things and memories happened ..
smiles and cries over the days always make me more courageous..
everyday i learn a lesson..peoples surrounding..u never know who
they are actually..
aku juga tahu things come seem horrible,painful and UNFAIR..
but things happen for a reason...
nothing happen by chance(betul ker ayat ni)..or sedap sikit means of good luck!

Anticipation...selalu ada pada diriku..but i know it all occur to test the limit of my soul..AKU tetap BERSYUKUR..keATASNYA..ALHAMDULLIAH..
aku mungkin bersikap dingin dengan orang yang tidak ku kenali..
mungkin kerana sikap ku yang kurang ambil peduli?
aku menjadi amat bengang dan sedih dengan kesempatan orang terhadap aku....you are the most poignant people to me...itu yang pasti!
tapi aku akan menjadi teramat penyayang dengan orang yang aku kenali..
thats me..for my beloved fren...
i always pray for your healthy and happiness..
Memories and experiences have shaped up my life..
pesan dari kawan aku..don't ever save special thing only for the occasion ..
everyday you're alive is a special occasion...

Everything i owned is not mine..harta kekayaan hak milik TUHAN..
But those little things undone makes me regrets if i know that my
hours were limited..regrets if i had not seen my friends around and
miss in touch with them ..
regrets if the things that i intended to write is not fulfill..
and it will be more regrets if i didn't tell my beloved and
kids often how much i truly love them...
Apepun yang pasti ..every morning when i open my eyes..
aku tetap bersyukur and tell myself that i am special..

Every day,every minute,every breath truly is ..a GIFT from GOD.


My Wishes in 2010
God please gives me and my loves one…
12 Month of Happiness,
52 Weeks of Fun,
365 Days Success,
8760 Hours Good Health,
52600 Minutes Good Luck,
3153600 Seconds of Joy…and that’s all! ”

everyday i wish for wisdom ..
everyday i wish for joy
everyday i pray for goodness
everyday i hope for the best
everyday it think of tomorrow that will never be the last...

bye bye two K nine...
welcome twenty ten

Living Malaysian Hospitality : Eating, Breathing, Sleeping

Living Malaysian Hospitality : Eating, Breathing, Sleeping

an evening @ Putrajaya..

i look to you....
after all my strength is gone
in you i can be strong
and when melodies are gone
in you i hear a song....i look to you

CINTA ADA....







AKU CINTA...bukan di bayang mata ..
jauh dari bahasa..dekatkan ertinya
AKU CINTA bukannya di sengaja..jauh dari wasangka
dekatkan hatinya...
memang cinta ada dalam JIWA KITA...

Those words have thousand meanings..
One of my favorite songs included a very interesting use of words of love in the following 3rd phrase..
Everybody got chance to love and to be love..
but depending how u react and how much u value the love which cant
be count in amount..how much u sacrifices your love?
For me..love is natural..its easy to fall in
and difficult to erase it..
My love is as boundless as the sea,
My love as deep as the sea
The more I give to thee, the more I have. For both are infinite.

...Ld'09

Back Together Again

HOLA ...

A good day comes back...
back together after years!
good and proud for both of them had success in their career..
so funny when we flashback those days...

Haaaaahaaa..AZURAHANA!!
Adoreable with ur sweet face and ur dimple!
mcm tak caya ..mother with two kids but perangai still mcm dulu!
Remember..tuition time?(CTC geng)
hmm...crazy and lousy..!Eh..where r the others ha?
pls...look for Azida and the rest..myself dah tak ingat nama nama
well biasalah..my life was shackled by your friend also..(u know)huhuhu..
heyy!tks ya for accompanied me during dating time!nasib lu la babe..
Heyy...why only now i know u also dislike him!A BIG CLAP for us..God Bless Me..
Lagi satu...seluar yang aku pinjam dulu tu ntah mana peginyer...
...but i promise to replace it..a BIG DINNER ..(kt BigBoy..masih ada lg ker tmpt lepak aku tu)..hehehe...


Anis..HOT student during school time..juz name it..
every student girls and boys knows her
..thats ANIS SHUKOR.
dont play play haa...
Anis.... mother and a teacher with one son (handsome giler anak anis)
Perangai still mcm dulu gak..very d shy one!

But sorry Anis...
if u read this..pls do something..MUST do something my dear..
its been 11yrs tht u have wasted ur time and life..tak puas hati nih!!!
Ur patient i think is enuf babe!its time to spread up ur beautiful wings.
I know..everybody can talk so easy ..but the burden u carried ..God knows
and the return is at the END..
Anis!...remember this ..we always behind you ..
anything..dont hesitate to call us..

Well ...my teenager and school days was the best moment
that i will never forget till the end...
YEAAAAAHHHH...We screwed up but we had fun.....
To Zura and Anis...thks for the gathering..small gathering
but a BIG HONOURED to us !


.....................BRAVO!BRAVO!BRAVO!............................

the best of Syawal 2009

Salam......
Its a pleasure to write again ..
After all muslim had celebrated SYAWAL..open house everywhere
and there..that's including me..hehe
I wanna share the precious moment that SYAWAL brings me joviality ,mirth even sorrowful with the past..
My family gathered at Tok Ami Non's house (Syed Zainol ) my mother's side which i did not recognise few of them especially with the older one ..Gosh! a big family actually and a big opportunity's to get know each of us..sorry if i neglected by this family trees ... start to know them by now yeaaa..
Sadness.. that a few that ive known had passed away..
Alfatihah to late Nda Nazirah(Tengku Nadzirah) ..passed away during Ramadhan and Ami Fadzil (Syed Fadzil)and Ami Hashim(Syed Hashim)leaved us during Syawal..



Another best moment was.. when i met my old school mate Anis Shukor..(babe!)
I had lost contact with all my ex school mate back 20yrs ago but we
meet up through FaceBook!eeeee...suke giler!
Beside Afkariah(Ultraminah) off course..my best mate during form 1 and recalled of Azurahana (comel2 with sweet dimple gitu)..i really miss u ols..
To Anis..really appreciate and thanks for every things..(makan2 kat rumah u lah)
Hoping to make reunion of RPSian..we will!



Hmm..what else ..oh ya!
My cousin wedding Shafinas held at Rapat Setia Ipoh..
This my father side ..Mohd Radzi Rejab
Happy thou sad inside .. this wedding ceremony had gathered us after a long years we havent met or known ..the only i know is my Opah Sharifah Zaleha and few auntys and uncles that was closed with me when i was a little linda....



Yeah..my open house!
That was great!A thousand thankful to Diana,Nana and Akmar(cik dak) for your hospitalty and helpfulness ..never forgetting to my dearest Shark!..u my sister and family to me..i love u all..






My SYAWAL full of joy and happiness to remember..besides my hubby side that was so nice and cheerful always ..i love u all with my heart..really i meant it!
To my Hubby..thanks for being my close friend and many things that we shared..never forget it ..my litlle' kakak'..Iman and 'adik'..Ajin..i love u so much...
God ...Thanks for This Syawal u gave me with all i wished and dreaming of..
AMIN...............

Salam and hello ....

Its Ramadhan ...and we still in fasting mood..
day 15.. yet we still have another 15days to go
to celebrate Syawal at the end of September...
Naaa...September?...my favourite month ..
hehe..the month i was born ..YEAHHH!..Virgorian Girl!!!
Hey..im proud of Virgo! its symbol of women..but follow to chinese
astrology is year of ox!oink oink...tak kisah pun!
Virgo is very independent zodiac sign ..
Element is Earth,Tarot card corresponding is The Hermit...
Lucky color is white and Lucky stone is diamond(no wonder)..WOW!
Virgo love is compatible to Capricorn,Taurus and ofcourse Virgo but its more good with libra..
i love libra too...
Im still counting my days ,my lucky birth date is 12th of September...coming soon!
and ofcourse im going older ..ADD ON to 38!


p/s:..tks for ur compliment reg my blog!

Ramadhan Al-Mubarak...

Salam...
RAMADHAN datang lagi

A year has gone and it comes back to us as islamic followers to perform
our 3rd commandment that is fasting for a month in islamic calendar
is 'bulan Ramadhan'.

Im so excited for this thou i have to wake up early in the morning to cook
and prepare the meal for the next days fast..but everything i did is
my responsibilty..and i am happy for it.
For the first day is quite difficult for my kids to wake early as 4.30 am
but they managed..hey!its not easy especially for the liltle one ok!
i cant say further coz it just started ( 2 days of fasting
including today)..anyhow im proud for them..

As a working mother i have to make sure that everythings will be fine..
..even i only have limited time that working odd hours with odd days in and out to be with them but
trust me then..i will try my very best to complete what is supposed to be
and be done..i will try yaaa....
Yet im still looking and searching foward to complete life journey ....


its an arduous to make someone satisfied with what we rendered
but its gratify with ability even in quantity...LD'09

SALAM RAMADHAN TO ALL....

experience in love life

Hola...
me again menulis just for fun besides its satu kepuasan ..
this time about my love life..inipun idea terkeluar after reading a novel..its about journey of love life ..hmm sedihnyer...
that's really touch my heart and its deeply touching..really.
sigh n sigh !gosh!! is this the feel we get after heart hurted?
or maybe becoz of this kind of feeling then you become revenger?
REVENGER!

ops!this happened to me last 20years ..
terribly sorry for him for this kind of feel that hurts you ...a thousand million apologies..
its an expensive experience for me.. tak di jual dan ianya sangat bernilai..he had taught me a real life ..my life began with him .. to laugh,to love and to be loved is a gift to ourselves,to receive,to experience life though emotions- yes,even with pain...
besides i grown up with his kind family...i owned for that..how i wish that i can turn back the time..

many things i learned..every moments still fresh in my mind..every step we make still playing like a movie ..damn! hey go away memories..
sorry.. i made up a decision to end up the relationship..memang jahil dan kejam sangat myself..but i got a reason to do so..accept qada dan qadar dan ketentuan dariNYA
well..apapun things had happened.. i should be thankful to GOD and to whom that make those days great and knowing me in your life..appreciate!
'simple living high thinking'..i keep till now..its better for us to be just friend.
i wish success is always around you as i just watch it from far as i can..not more than that..i am happy for you and your family as my happiest moment always be with me.. with my hubby and my kids around me..i love them so much!

lastly ...don't be dismayed at goodbyes
a farewell is nessessary
and meeting again,
after moments of lifetimes
is certain for us to be just a FRIEND...


thanks for everythings ....
ld'09 0439hrs















~our song~

Aloha ..its been quite a long time i haven't post any latest
tentang myself ..
nothing interesting to share with but adalah sedikit yang terlintas
inside my mind..
hmm...apa nak story this time ekk?
about me..yaa ..
lately ni i found that im become serious in reading
i mean reading a novel..ini pengaruh from' shark'..nama kat facebook
..nama ikut mycard is shakira..
actually i hate reading..tak kisah lah any type of reading..
from those days lagi if buku sekolah...hmmm lagilah
but this novel is about love, passion,revenge and sad ..thats makes me berangan and cried
like nobody business ..ha..kena sekalikan..tak suka novel katanyer..
now i think i am addicted to novel..starting new hobby lah kot..hmmm...
but one more thing yang u ols tak tau about me..i love music!
once i wake up in the morning(bangun pagi ker)..its a must to grab and open my notebook
that played my playlist...habit..morning mood maybe?

haa..here got another story to share
its suddenly keep me asking to myself..why this kind of people
still around and making trouble to others?
why still have this kind of disease in their heart?
pernah tak dia orang perasan tentang diri masing masing?
well i am not pointing to the one here but

when talking about people..let us see to our self ..
who are we actually?
are we perfectly perfect ?
being favouritism?
demanding?
insincere to yourself huh?

cuba kita tengok depan cermin...what can we see?
its our self or orang lain?
did you know how beautiful your heart is..
how sincere u are towards yourself and to your friend and beloved one?
maybe we had forgotten or maybe just ignore in fact we
realized it..betul macam Tun Mahathir cakap..Melayu Mudah Lupa!
cum'on ..accept the mistakes and take it for good thou
its burden..like one of my friends always say to me
thanks to GOD for good or bad ..always syukur for what you
have gain...always remember to this that you have not lived a perfect day,
even though you have earned your money and you have done something
for someone who will never be able to repay you...

Alhamdulliah...GOD had given and created me d most greatest in life..
syukur with what i have now .. no words can describes ..
i am too small for YOU who had bring everyday with laughter's and joy..
which sometimes i had not realize of it..i am negligent with surroundings..
gosh!..correct me whenever im doing wrong or distracted to others..

...ld'09
03:14hrs

few things about myself to be share...

I made a few list in my day (besides 'berangan')and i use it as my reference...a few things that i want to accomplish in my life journey..hopefully and insyaallah.
We are so quick to be hard to ourselves and point out the things we wanted to change in ourselves...but are we doing it ?

I want and will try to prove to myself that thinking of few things should not be very hard.



LIFE is meant to be shared...
Sometimes its hard to introduce yourself because
u know yourself very well that you do not know
where to start with...
Hmmm...a few things about myself and let me give a try..
here it goes..

1.I am more tolerant with age
2.I am open minded
3.I love to photograph my kids
4.I’m learning to laugh at myself
5. A mom of two kids.
6.I’m aware of my faults, but finally learned to be kind to myself
7.I love my frens and appreciate them
8.I know how to bake a cake(atleast) and cook my kids fav dishes.
9.I like animal especially cat (even im athsmatic)
10.I notice subtleties in behavior and I am learning not to take things personally.
11.I enjoy eating thus my body worried me sometimes.
12.I do sing (when im driving).
13.I like coffee even though it conflicts with my meditation
14.I say it like it is
15.I cry over stray animals
16.And people around over commercials of family and children especially.
17.A fren and wife to my hubby.





18. I love others as i love myself
19.I am forgiving person..(no dendam2 ..)
20.Actually i like arts..especially painting
but how come i turn myself in painting on my face
and my fren...(hehehe...they know)

This is a brief introduction of myself. If you are interested in knowing more, read my articles or take a look at my pictures. Do not expect too much, and keep your sense of humor.

THE END.



I am finally realized what it feels like to love myself.

And the love ones.. not forgetting till the end....